Day 4 Hope challenge
Kathryn May’s Story
When God knit me together in my mother’s womb, I believe He added a little extra tenacity and a whole lot of resilience. He knew I’d need it to fight and overcome the battles my life would face. Since I was a little girl there has been an attack on my voice. As a small child I practiced screaming to prepare for the next time I would face my abuser, but when the time came, I couldn’t open my mouth. As I grew, life beat the desire to speak up right out of me. I believed I was damaged goods waiting to be discarded by the next person that came along. The pain of the past marked me. Even when I believe I had something to say, I usually kept quiet for fear it would lead to more pain. Rejection, abandonment, loss of love…
In my mid-twenties God set me up to meet a series of women, I call checkpoint people, who over the course of a decade would each teach me a different facet of God’s character. One would share God the Son, Jesus Christ. Another would reveal God the Spirit and my identity in Christ. Lastly one of my beautiful mentors would show me the love of God the Father that would ultimately lead me to trust God and accept my position as a daughter of the King.
Through the years of learning who I was created to be, I discovered the courage to find freedom from a life of abuse. My heart's cry was to be whole, healed, and healthy which led me to ferociously go after the healing my mind and heart so desperately needed. I was determined to be free from the pain of the past. In doing so I’ve discovered a new way to live. I’ve found peace that is not of this world (John 14:27).
It is now my mission to speak up and comfort others with the same comfort I was comforted with. To encourage women to uncover the lies of the enemy and discover who they were created to be. To walk as daughters who are healed and healthy inside-out.
I published my story in September 2021.
Prayer for Today
Lord, You are my High Priest, and I ask you to loose me from this "infirmary." The abuse I suffered pronounced me guilty and condemned. I was bound in an emotional prison, crippled and could not lift myself up. You called me to Yourself and I have come. The anointing that is upon You is present to bind up and heal the brokenness and emotional wounds of the past. You are the Truth that makes me free. Thank you, Lord, for guiding me through the steps to emotional wholeness. You have begun and good work in me, and You will perform it until the day of Christ Jesus.
Father, I desire to live according to the Spirit fo life in Christ. This Spirit of life in Christ, like and strong wind, has magnificently cleared the air, freeing me from a fated lifetime of brutal tyranny and the hands of abuse. Since I am now free, it is my desire to forgive those things that lie behind and strain forward to what is ahead. The past will no longer control my thinking patterns or my behavior.
I praise you Lord, because I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. All the old things have passed away and now all things are made new. I declare that from this day forth I will walk in newness of life. Forgive me Father for self-hatred and self-condemnation. I am Your child.
Thank you for the blood of Jesus that makes me whole. I am complete, lacking nothing, because of Your great love for me.
I submit my life and heart to you, my Gardener, to landscape me with the Word and create in me a new place. I give you all authority to the dark places I have been afraid to look at. I know with Your help I can deal with them and I trust You to take care of them.
By Your grace, I forgive my abuser and ask you to bring (him/her/them) to repentance.
In the name of Jesus, amen.
